August 31st, 2010 
Tonya K. 
December 21, 2009 I began the InVizion 2010 coaching program assisting clients with visioning and planing their goals for 2010. The program concluded March 21, 2010 and who knew the greatest client I would have would be myself. As I began to vision what I wanted to achieve in 2010, I began to see more things that I wanted to relieve myself of. There were several areas of my life that were cluttered and leaving me unproductive and stagnant. These inward issues were being reflected in the outer me. I was living in a city that was not to my liking, I was feeling the pressure from school and my studies, my business came to a stand still, and I was not happy in my domestic relation. After my internet radio shows holiday season break. I decided to take a break for as long as I needed. I also decided to take a break from school, my relationship, business, and non productive acquaintences. The motto Spirit gave me for this year is “Don’t Just Talk About It, But Be About It”. It took a bit of time for me to swallow that reality and make it mines. I challenged myself to not just talk about being healthy but to be it. When I say healthy I mean mentally, spiritually and physically. Just like my show Heal Talk is not a show that just deals with the issue of eating certain foods, but it is about truly being healed which must first begin inwardly within the mind and spirit.
March of this year I found my mind in a place of wanting to give up on life. Wanting to be in another place and back to my essence which is spirit. I was tired of the pressure and had to remind myself that “The Most High does not give us more then we can handle”. I was in a city where I knew no one and had to remember to keep my mind and spirit focused, because this is where my strength lay. In reality I was clinically depressed, I thank the one who made me for the knowledge in which I have concerning depression and was able to contact my daughter to let her know what was happening to me. In that dark moment I also knew who was who in my life, spirit began to speak to me showing me things about myself and others. They let me know who to contact to get the spiritual assistance I needed. I began to realize why I often would hear the phrase “Who is there for the healer when they need healing”. I couldn’t go within at that point, but I had to reach up and reach out. I had to tap into the God of my salvation and my ancestors.
This has been a rough year, but it just showed me how tough I am and that I am not made of sand but I am a brickhouse. I had to remind myself, that the storm I was in would eventually pass. Maybe not when I wanted it to , but time is not limited to a clock or calendar. There were many burdens I had to lay by the river side so they could float away and be buried under water with me not looking back at them, matter of fact there was no need to say goodbye. We only say goodbye to that which we will miss and one day may want to see again. Sometimes you have to declare, decree, set free and keep it moving. Right now in this present moment, I am in a good place. I feel as though I am anew and have been rebirthed. I am on a new quest and am finally able to address those issues in my life that need to be completely healed. Those areas that still have a scar that hurts when it is rubbed. But I am reminded that “I will reign through the pain”. All Hail the Queen!
Rev. Dr. Tonya Keatz-El D.Div is available to assist you with healing beyond the pain of your past. Contact her at 404.890.0667. You may visit her website at: http://tonyakeatz.com
